Give up... Or not?

From time to time, I think life is just unfair.
Where we face countless tribulations, lost in utter despair.
Facing this uncomfortable feelings, my thoughts just go spiral forcing myself to give up.
I tried countless ways to find happiness in this antagonistic place, despite trying my best, all I get are criticisms for minor mistakes, struggling to step up.

Somehow... I got over it, not knowing it already broke down my self-esteem, ruined and pathetic.
Whenever I get compliments, I always took it pessimistically, telling myself that those are all lies and that I am undeserving of such recognition.

Shall I keep this up?
Or should just give up?
Whatever it is, I hope to honor my beloved's request and live on.

Although, I said it with such gusto,
I still have this uncomfortable feeling to forgo.
I wish someone could embrace me, even for a moment.
Perhaps it could ease myself from the state of being distress and despondent.

The night is alluringly peaceful, coaxing me to sleep.
Torn out, my consciousness drifted to a serene slumber, as I was caress by the gentle night breeze.