Scared

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I am so scared.

Tomorrow I will be a shadow teacher for another kid until end of June. All in all it's gonna be 12 days excluding holidays.

If this was just the usual job, I won't be scared, nervous yes. But I was already warned a lot of times that it's gonna be a hostile environment.

This is making me sicker and stressed. I won't have any support. The mother was telling me that if I made a mistake, I will cause them to lose a school. I just want to cry. I like the huge pay but not the stress that it's causing me.

Fuck.

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    1. northerner Jun 11, 2025 at 2:34 PM
      Thank you! @LittleFool and @Cutter Masterson

      I was faking until I made it earlier. Hopefully my manager can make a visit so I can breathe. Lol.
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    2. Cutter Masterson Jun 10, 2025 at 1:58 PM
      I understand. A lot is riding on your shoulders and it is complete understandable to feel scared. Fear can bind you. It can slowly you down. It can even cause doubt. I remember a quote from a movie I love. It goes like this. “Let me tell you something you already know. The world ain't all sunshine and rainbows. It's a very mean and nasty place and I don't care how tough you are it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it. You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain't about how hard ya hit. It's about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward. How much you can take and keep moving forward. That's how winning is done.” Rocky Belboa. I bring this up to encourage you. Fear will keep you on your knees if you let it. But in order to do what you want, need or love to do. You will have to step forward. Not only for you, but also those who care and love you. I know it will be tough. And punches will be heavy. But building character is never easy. And being a role model starts with you. Strengthen your resolve. Don’t be remembered as a punchline, but as a person to be admired. You can do this! Here’s a tip. Clenched you fist and pull out 20 seconds of courage. Remind yourself. I can do this. It’s only 20 seconds. Than face them. You can do this. I believe in you. Good luck
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    3. LittleFool Jun 10, 2025 at 1:08 PM
      Don't let your confidence waver and don't doubt yourself, else it will only make you more prone to make mistakes. It's alright to be nervous, especially when dealing with another's education.
      Have faith in yourself! You will definitely do well. Good luck!
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